Why Me? Why Now?

There is a time

And a timeline

For every life event

Some create indelible memories

Some wreak life-altering catastrophes

It maybe man-made

Or beyond man’s control

In either of the events

In any of the outcomes

One thing is constant

And one thing is under man’s power:

And that is our

Choice of reaction or perception to it.

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We may not be able to influence nature

The power to change everyone

Is not in our jurisdiction

But the determination to see

The brighter side of every experience

And the ultimate influence

Over our happiness in life

Lies in our hearts of heart

And this is more important

Than anything that might

Have happened or is happening to us.

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I cannot downplay the effects

Of certain heartbreaking events

In our lives

I am not saying that

It will always be an easy decision

To be optimistic or find the silver-lining

It may not first option to mind

That’s why it’s the most rewarding  

And so we need to be strong for us

And for our future

Because, at the end of day

We are responsible for what

Was said or done in our bodies

Not necessarily what happened to us.

Soul

My soul transcends my being

I felt an internal struggle for space

The right to possess my mind

Like I was a newly discovered element to patent

.

Tears, fears, and anguish

The battle continues,

Worse, within

The things are impossible to share

No human mind can understand

.

Now I wonder if best to be a vacuum

But am loaded with too much information

To be alone

So if you read this with no understanding

Feel no guilt

For poetry is not for all.

I Have A Life To Live

What is important to you?
Or what should you care about?
Is it about what you feel?
Or what we feel about you?

I pick up my pen to write
The battle is not about 
What to write about
But rather what I am 
Expected to write about.

I am stuck between these 
Contrasting worlds of mine
To write my heart 
Which you do not want to hear
Or to write what you want
Which I may not really care about.

Why am I evening thinking
About what you want?
I have a life to live
If you want someone
Who will do exactly what you want
Why not get a clone of you?
You have enough resources, why not make one?

I have a life to live
A saviour to please
Poems to write
And records to break
My mind to speak
And a mission to fulfill
And after all said and done
I have my life to account.

MANY VOICES

I hear many voices

But who’s speaking?

Am I to listen to the voices

Or to know who’s speaking?

Will listening to the voices

Help me know who’s speaking?

Or will the voices

Distract me from who’s speaking?

Though my soul is constantly tormented by the surrounding voices

My dear heart pants to hear who’s speaking

Like the hungry soul of a pilgrim looking for direction

In a wilderness with many roads and deception

I wish I could be alone with no voices

But true silence only exist outside of the land of the living.

Please, who can help me filter these voices?

For my existence is tied to identifying and following the one who’s speaking.

I Will Wait (The Original)

The clock is ticking so fast

Yet I will wait for the Lord’s time

Everyone and everything is going very fast

Yet the silent voice says ‘the best is in God’s time’

Microwave, drive-thru, social media, all seem fast

Yet Mama said ‘good things take time’

So though the vision may tarry yet will I hold fast

Cause the vision is for an appointed time.

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